Look at you
Across the hall farther than the sun
I glance across just for a little fun
Our eyes meet in an instant
Even though your so distant
our emotions are bound at the hips
I wish i could feel the touch of your lips
Like a blossom in a spring days heat
I feel a rush of warmth when our eyes meet
A smile is all I desire,
From you a top your spire
A wink is all I crave
Even in the darkest cave
Even though I lost my emotion
Life still continues with constant motion
I need to overcome my mistakes
I didn’t mean to do this in multiple takes
Just let me get over what I’ve done
It was a choice maybe not the right one
I know I’ve made a change of pace
Sadly, I will not know until the end of this race.
A smile is all I desire
From you a top your spire
A wink is all I crave
Even in the darkest cave.
Death, Life, Rot
Decomposing in the dark
Underground wrapped in bark
A wooden cage to keep the soul
Pieces are eaten taken from the whole
Split and severed from the flesh
These maggots become a boundless mesh
Covering the sludge that is me
Ending my rotting reality.
I’ve always been told to fight for what I want, to take what is mine. From what I can tell this motto has always worked in my favor. I think about that saying now after all that has happened and I wonder, maybe I take its success for granted.
The night was special to me, a place of solace with the stars above blanketing my view. Something about the darkness covering every inch of my sight made me feel safe and in control. Every night after work I would come out to this same cliff, from here I could see to the edge of town. The lights from the streets below mirroring the stars above. It’s gorgeous here, like two skies colliding. I gazed upon the stars, looking for constellations among the sea of lights. After a few moments of searching I noticed the recognizable features of Ursa Major and Lynx in the sky. As I admired the beauty of the far away suns, it happened. Like a click of a switch, it started. At first it was only one, the tip of Ursa Major’s tail just disappeared.
I was astonished. Had I just witnessed history? I pondered and stared at the sky, mesmerized by what I just saw. Until it happened again… Ursa’s leg lost two stars within quick succession. I didn’t understand. Everything I knew about stars told me this wasn’t possible. I glanced around the sky and noticed even more lights fading. Like fireflies on a bat’s feeding night, the alien suns disappeared all around me. It didn’t take long before the sky went dark, only lit by the pale white glow of the moon overhead.
That’s when the first tremor started- my arms began to shake. Was it fear, or something far worse? I couldn’t tell but I knew something was wrong, almost as if every blood cell in my body decided to try and escape the vessels in which they were contained. I could feel my eyes straining as my vision began to narrow. “I’m having a panic attack,” I said to myself. I tried to slow my shaky breaths, each attempt as hard as stopping an earthquake with a blade of grass. I attempted to look for a place of calm to focus on that wasn’t the empty void of the sky.
I soon realised that when I looked toward where the city stood, there was nothing. The land on which the city once rested was flat and dark like a prairie in the night. The flat ground provided a clear horizon in which the moon could be viewed. I knew in this instant I needed to run. My body needed to flee. I began to sprint, like a galloping horse at the end of its life, pushing myself to a point of exhaustion within minutes. I only made it to the forest entrance, only 20 feet. “How,” was the only word I could muster. Within at least three minutes of full force running I only moved a mere 20 feet. I needed to get into the forest, to hide myself from the endless darkness that was enveloping my reality. I attempted to step forward, my legs like lead and my muscles as stiff as boards, each step becoming increasingly harder. I was only a yard away when I knew I was at my limit. But my body had to move- at this point I couldn’t even stop myself. My muscles began to pull as if a puppet on strings. My body attempted to move. I had no control; the one thing I had in this world, and now I had none.
I heard the snaps first, the tears and rips of flesh coming undone. I glared down at my autonomous legs. I could see my tendons and muscles straining. Varicose veins pulsing on the surface. I began to notice my skin, stretching and tearing, my feet stuck in the ground while my legs moved forward. I couldn’t scream, my mouth sewn shut by pain. I finally fell to the ground once the leathery skin that held my legs finally sloughed away. Like a bag of bricks, I hit the cold soil. I thought for sure this would be my last moment. Until I saw myself- I could see my own face glaring down at me. Blood welled in my eyes, like red tears streaking down my face. I could feel my muscles spasming and contorting into shapes that were all but natural. He looked at me- I looked at me. We both looked up, and saw the stars.
